I Understand

Having nothing to lose I sent you a message yesterday, in which I proposed we start from 0. You didn't actually read it until that night but all afternoon I had time to heal and understand.

I already know I am very mature when it comes to relationships, I'm realistic and calculating. But I absolutley had no idea I had grown so much, not that I was oblivious to these things, it's just you made me realized how much I grew after my 4 year relationship. Why? Well I had true feelings for you and now I have to let them go, but i understand why i have to do it and it's not a reason to be sad. 

In my mind i will always have a million questions, and there might be one more, but it doesn't really matter, or which reason is stronger, the point is you need time to heal and we can't continue so I understand.

I thought I could help you heal, but we're all different. Every mind is a universe, and in every mind is a world of thought.

I wish I had met you at a time when you heart were healed and you had no fears to love freely, or at least get to know me without having to hold anything back. At least I didn't lose a friend. Who knows what the future might hold. I hope you have all the happiness in the universe and that you truly repair your heart.