I find nowhere to express my feeling. Because there are so many eyes on you in social media, and even if they're not looking my way, i wouldn't ever share my thoughts publicly. It's so easy for everyone else to share their life, their happiness, their sadness without the fear of being judged by others.
Today i find my heart aching, because I let it feel freely. I believed in your words and your actions and I let go. But now my heart feels broken and feelings don't just burn and evaporate out of the heart. The ashes sink and the smoke gets trapped in the walls of my mind.
In my mind, my thoughts are traveling faster than the speed of my words, and i can't keep up. They won't rest with so many questions i need an answer to.
Why did you lead me to believe what was never going to be real?
Why can't you tell me what you want in the future?
Why did you say you cared for me?
Why do you think i'm so cold that i might not be feeling right now?
What did I do?
Where is my happiness?
When will it come?
Where is my peace of mind?
Why do i feel the shiver on my skin?
I never thought my first entry would be such a sad one. The reality of life is that good and bad things happen, but they also come and go
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